almost...

Looks like we've finally figured out when we are leaving. Thats a relief! I'm a planner, and there is no planning that I can do to prepare me for this next phase of life. I don't know what to expect. I'm not sure if I am strong enough to endure this. I wonder if I'm causing unnecessary chaos in my kids life. It's been such a stressful week for all of us. The kids things are all packed up and put in storage. We are living out of tupperwares and sleeping bags. Our day-to-day routine is shot and my poor little babies are having a hard time adjusting. (me too) What I do know is that anytime I stop the chaos and lay it down at the feet of my king he takes it. He feels me with peace and clarity. His spirit gently reminds me that he is in control and I'm not. That he knows the plan and I am to trust and let go. I continue to lay this anxiety at his feet. Day after day, hour after hour, and He continues to pick it up from me and relieves me from this burden. His plan is bigger, better, and full of his grace and glory. My plan is rigid, boring, and suffocates his spirit within me and my family. That's the last thing I want.....suffocation from my Lord.....I refuse to allow that to be!
Therefore, I lay me down at the foot of his throne and rest in His comfort that he's got me and wont EVER let me go.

Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:22-23

broken

every thing we touch is crumbling in our hands!
IE:
bed room fan
vacuum
toilet
borrowed truck to move stuff in storage....
window
tailgate handle
break light
then.....
our car A/C is out

planned on getting on the road tomorrow. Still waiting on UHAUL and bike shop to do what they promised to be done at the beginning of the week....

gentle reminder that our plans can fail but God's provision will never

Isaiah 40:12-15 (NLT)

"Who else has held the oceans in his hand?
Who has measured off the heavens with his fingers?
Who else knows the weight of the earth or has weighed the mountains and hills on a scale?
Who is able to advise the Spirit of the Lord?
Who knows enough to give him advice or teach him?

Has the Lord ever needed anyone's advice? Does he need instruction about what is good?
Did someone teach him what is right or show him the path of justice?

No, for all the nations of the world are but a drop in the bucket. They are nothing more than dust on the scales. He pick up the whole earth as though it were a grain of sand."

"The measure of God's abilities will always surpass the measure of our audacity. No prayer is too big for our God. No vision too sweeping. No risk too great. God has never been nervous about his ability to live up to our faith in him." (Sun Stand Still p. 92 - Furtick, 2010)

Laundry day

Today we went to do the laundry. It's been 7 years since I last had to visit a laundry mat.
THANK YOU LORD that today my family worked together to get a job done. THANK YOU LORD that today we shared the burdened and shared time together. THANK YOU LORD for your grace that brings your glory.

Packing up

Started packing up our "valuables" last week. Have decided to give most of our furniture to fund missions and the rest to the renters. The process of eliminating the things in my life I find physical comfort in has been rough. I estimated at least three "break" downs. Perhaps this is the withdrawal stages of detox. God is faithful, every time I lay it at His feet He picks it up and comforts me.
I have asked and been asked....is this "stuff" bad. It's a couch, baking stuff, tv, bed. Detox from this? Is it so addictive that we need to cleanse our blood stream of these toxin's? YUP
Our stuff became an idol of comfort and security. Our stuff became a thing to strive for more of. Our stuff hinders us from giving unselfishly to God, our children and the world God loves. It's our stuff that is prohibiting God from working in us. So our stuff is gone...